As my memory gets slowly out of it's most confused state, I think it's time for me to relate my experience of nearly out-of-body feeling ( I am serious about this ) when I suffered a stroke condition on 14th. Feb. 2004.
This account is for reading by my still healthy mates, and also for detail consideration and thinking by my 4 sons/families and my beloved wife. As normal, I help out a relative by doing administrative task for his shop. I usually starts at about 0830 hrs. every morning except Fridays. After helping my wife making cake mixture for her steamed fruit cake, I then asked my wife to bring along my breakfast to the visitor's hall. I then consumed the breakfast as usual.
A funny sensation then engulfs me. My knees starts to wobble freely, followed by an accute sensation of vertigo. I threw out most of my breakfast, and in a sec., I started to feel dizzy and sweat profusely. My luck is still around, for I still have the instinct not to fall flat on my face. I quickly grabbed a backrest cushion and placed it under my head. Then.......my vision is only focussed on two rotating spirals in my mind, heared my wife directing my sons to task, and loud conversations around me, then slowly, darkness appears........
The notes below are from my wife's account: I phoned for medical help, and my husband was hurriedly transported to a nearby government medical facility. After inspection by the resident doctor, he then instructed his staffs to transport my husband to the town's main government hospital. After tests and due consideration, they decided to transfer my husband to another nearby facility for further examination and treatment. A CT scan of the brain reveals Pontine Haemorrhage. Thank God, he survived . He suffered giddiness, lef side weakness and slurred speech. He was bedridden and monitored at the facility for a month. To date, he is still managed conservatively with regular physiotheraphy. Continious monitoring for blood pressure and blood sugar stabilisation is carried out quaterly.
That's my wife's account. To date, I still could not walk as a normal person and my speech is still slurry ( numb feeling around the lips area). With that, I feel that my whole life is aground. Anyway, I still have an obedient wife, and also my four sons. Anyway, when I first realised about the incident, many things cropped into my fragile memory. A feeling of complete helplessness, self-pity, being left alone and deserted by most friends and all. Thank God, after being treated, medically and spiritually, I now can and will accept that what happens to me is just a normal que sera sera of life. So to may friends out there, please live your life to the fullest, take advantage of whatever you have right now, take good care of your family, and just keep ONE thing in your mind. In time of real need, do not depend on other's to come for your help, it's only your family that will take care of you, full stop. My family and myself wished to thank the doctors and staffs of all the medical facilities involved, and the dedicated staffs of the Physiotheraphy Centre at the HUSM, for their impartial deeds to help me to get a grip of myself, because initially, I can't even move my fingers of my left hand even 1 mm. My mind seems to direct my fingers to move, but my hand just could not receive that direction, or if it can receive it, the body motors just would not respond, flat.
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